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Tue, Jan. 16th, 2007, 09:22 pm
lizz612: Introduction and some venting.

Hi there I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm three years older than my sister, who has very severe ADD with depression and some other things that I'm not privy to. I'm nearing the end of my college career and thinking about "the real world" as we call it; you know bills and a job and a place to live. I have to admit to myself that getting many states away for college made it easy to forget that my sister and all her quirks are all going to be part of my life for a long time. I know that my parents are still young and healthy, but I still wonder at times what is going to happen when they die or simply can't live with her anymore.

I guess part of what triggered this was a scene in Six Feet Under, the first season (which she was watching over winter break while I was home). One of the characters comes to pick up his girlfriend for a weekend get away but she can't go. Her brother (an artist) is having an episode of something and trying to pick out photos for his show. He says he can't see anymore, he calls all his photos crap, she is trying to help him as best she can, but you can tell from the look on her face that its tiring.

I told her, I love you dearly but I wont do that for you. But I have. She's made things for her classes (she's in a BFA program at an art school), called them crap and tried to destroy them in order to restart. I talked her down from that more than once and I was only home for 4 weeks. My parents and I all wonder what it will be like when she lives on her own. Will she eat? Will she get anything productive done? Have we been protecting her? Or will she really starve and get nothing done if no one is there to remind her?